New years
Now Playing: Novacain
It's new years..im heading over to melissas 4 the night, so ill keep this short...mm wine is good...nice evening ive had so far. Ki cooked sum good meat and rive with ice grape wine. Tomorrw heading to the movies with mel dan and nathan. Should be interesting..tah

kari

i wonder y??
Mood:  special
Now Playing: Danger Zone
Im happy today. No real reason. Last night after Josh and Jeff left we as a family plus Aaron had chinese for super, we just sat and ate, talked, and ended up talking in forgine languages that we knew. I felt very, homely last night, and I guess i still feel very good. Then Kirsten Aaron and I went skating at the outside rink. It was fun and cold, then we drove around the town looking at lights, I can't even describe how good it felt!! I'm exstatic and full of love and energy, the best feeling ever, but the law of life the second one thing goes good and other part falls to peices...but I'm going to try to push that thought to the back of my mind along with my normal depression.

This morning Kirsten mom and I went shopping so I could buy a belt. I ended up with 3 and Ki bought some workout pants. OMG!! A small popcorn at Galaxy costs 4.59!! Well I didn't even buy it for myself!! I bought it for the ducks outside...it was great to watch them eat it!! Another memorable funny as hell moment!! We thought the ducks were choking 4 a bit :S haha they bettera liked it!! It was expensive!! I wish to do something with someone today...watch a movie mostly, but I'm not sure who to ask, and if my parents will allow it or not.
Sayanora
kari

boxing day
Mood:  not sure
its boxing day. I guess im happy. Not to sure. I love every thing i got and i have been watching shrek 4 about 10 hours. Ok music has oficially ended..damn cds, i love my camera i got too....probably not the best thing to give me, ive dropped it 2 times already. Anyways, ki is out with her friends, ya not aaron for once, shocking isint it?? Well i got tons of stuff i dont need but i loce it anyways!! Josh and jeff r coming..i ougt to go and out on cloths...tah

to tired to mosh
Mood:  irritated
Yesterday started ok...ended up just making me mad and sad. Did nothing all day the at 4 went to the mall and met up with dani. We bought her mom sum earings then walked around 4 about 30min...we then found krista and katie...walked around sum more...then saw rob and vanessa...then walked around sum more. FREE THE CHINCHILLAS!! We played red and blue trying to find 3 things red and 3 things blue in every store...that got boarding very quickly...so then we played phone tag all across the mall. Dani katie and krista all had sum Micky'ds too ...grossssssssssssssss!! We saw dan and nathen...said hi...then bi...then we walked summore...

Actually at the show it took like forever to get in casue they were searching everyone. Then once we were in and the crossed started playing we would try to mosh but none would!! the y would just look at us as if we invaded their personal space or sumthing!! well that was pissing me off...so the rest of the night i just didnt feel like it. Once they were done the bottom half played but i mostly sat on the wall with nathen...the hangdowns i went up 4 a bit...but got board so went back with krista...bin rand and the mother fucking taliband were great...but i still didnt feel like moshing...i had no energy!! So sat and talked to nathen...how dan loves krista but she dont like him and how dustin was harassing here and dan got all mad...im going to have to yell at him 4 that...hes just so dumb!! well nathen gave me a little kiss on the cheek and after showing me his emo book(super cool says emo on it!!) tried to get my phone number but there was no pens so hes guna call other ppl who have mine to get it. Then it was 11:30 so my mom was mad i was 30min late...got in shite 4 that. but all is well now.

My sister is supposed to be home now but her flight has been delayed...:'(...T_T today im just guna wait till she comes i guess...still feel realli bummy....buh bi
karu

jeff & show
Mood:  party time!
Now Playing: The Killers - Mr. Brightside
Last night i went tobogganing with melissa...haha we soo could not control the damn toboggan!! Then we walked back to my house and met jeff and adam walking back!! Talked to them 4 a bit then invited em back here...bad move...well they stayed till 10:35 when mels mom called and i now have a pillow thats pink...how can i explain this one?? Mel said she liked adam and thats knida cute..but hes to much of a player..but he does give good back massages!!

Tonight there is the show and I'm meeting dani and krista at the mall at 4. I told jeff where it is and he might go!! God him in a mosh pit?? AAHH get outa the way!! lol but im board and going to play gc 4 a bit!! haha i love being a nerd O_O. chao

The Crossed

so very long
Mood:  surprised
Now Playing: AFI-Sliver and Cold
I can't remeber th last time i wrote. It's been busy. Ok lets start on thursday.

After school was the last practise of the season/year!! yaaaa...matt...my sorta bf right now wanted me to go to another practise at 7 but i was to lazy to go. Be sides, i had to get my flu shot. My arm felt like lead after it.

Friday, last day of school. In the morning we had to present our gym dance. That was incredably fun becasue our dance was just so stupid. I brought all my makeup and looked like a freak! It was great only casue all my group did too!! Next in geo we were going to watch the rest of 24 but matt wasnt there and we had finished the disk. So we watched some lame movie on Vagas Vecation....however i did keep my dress on till lunch along with dani still looking like a witch but i had to take it off casue i had to have my needle. Ate lunch..tried to convince mel to come to the show that night, without much sucess casue she didnt come. In french we had to had in our time projects...monicas and mine r always...lets say, interesting!! Then we started to watch the end of "Back to the Futur" but we got called down to the gym for the Christmas play. We were going to leave after osaid but that was second last so we waited till all the damn singing was over watched osaid and decided it would be worth it to stay 4 the teachers play. It was about being canadaian and all, it was funny.Then we left.

Walked back to danis first with all my junk, which still resides there, then over to krista's to get zack, but he didnt come until later. So we walked 4 like 45 min 4 nothing which made my feet soare.....Back at danis i grabed sum mittens then we headed off for the bus stop...wait forEVER!! then got on the bus till we got off at the terminal. Walked to the mall wandered around, saw brit there who was getting into this huge fight, found zack, tried our best to keep him walking in a straight line...again,failing. Then walked up to Odd Fellows. Talked to a few ppl there, then went inside. Adam was there, and to my surprise also Evan, and no matter how hard i tried he would not go into a pit!! haha!! in the pits it was ok for a bit but then my hand with my brokenness started hurting so i just sat out...i sat for a long time...during that time nathen was checking me out. Dani, without me knowing, gave him my email. Hes so cute!! At the end of the show he asked if i wanted to do sumthing with him after the holiday, of coarse i said yes, ok have 2 bfs cant be that bad can it?? well buh bi matt!! anyshoe I think it was when rand was playing sumthing very bad/sad happend. DAN GOT HURT!! there was blood everywere and he got taken away in an ambulance. It was so very sad, hes so very fragile, we actually cried for a bit and i was cold so nathen was warming me up:P The rest of the show was sad...us just sitting there mostly, trying to to think that dans guan die. Once most ppl left dani and i were left and while waiting for my mom ianelli can back(ok cant spell)dani screamed but didnt wana run up to him in case she hurt him. Even before when he got hurt he was hurting casue he likes krista but she dont like him and he looked so sad when she was with grahm but mostly when she was with zack...i wanted to hug him...say she dont realli like em...but that woulda let krista know...mom came ride home sleep.

Saterday cant realli rember the details of this day...wait yes i do...went to the lirbray in the morning and then shoping with dani and jamie for sex toys 4 anthony. Emergeny sex kit they called it, and made me seem like the perve and but all/most of it for them!! I was supposed to see Alexander that day but it came outa theatres. Than at 5:45 i went up to baby sit...showed them sum of my games, watched the nightmare before christmas then put them to bed

Sunday, woke up at like 11, ate, played gc, went to gramas, the went to jodies for the night. We watched bridget jones diary and i just adore that movie:)

Monday,woke up at 6!! got ready, and went to the bud terminal to go snowboarding for the first time!! once we were there i rented my snowboard and started on the bunny hill..omg just trying to get up the shilift was difficult!! Well my first run i can honestly say was the worst. After that i begane to get it!! after about 5 runs on the bunny hill we went to the big hill! Not to bad eh?? haha well i think in my own mind i did great!! It was freezing up there and we had to come in often. By the end of the day i was sooooo tired, we got forced to the back of the bus. I didnt realli say or do anything till the guy next to me started talking. ppl had been throwing food and it was stainded all over the bus, he ended up being prety cool, gr 10 korah, rob sumthing...i realized tehn that if i talk to any guy one on one i can make then coon to their knees, well ya he was wildly flirting with me and trying to convince me to come back everyday on the bus...haha another guy?? well no thanx im full!! i feel like such a player...felt bad tho becasue i was only talking to him and not jodie leaving her out...but meh...

Tuesday/today, woke up at 8 but went bacxk to sleep..danm snowblowers...woke up at 11 casue sumone called...then my mom called...the my grama came...and now at 1:30 im going out for lunch with her and shopping for a dog bed 4 murph...

well that was like my past week but i cant help but think i didnt mention the other 2 guys i like...awww they r so cute and fun and nice to me...
i hate having to chose!!
later
Karu

i realli do hate ppl
Mood:  irritated
yesh...ppl..enoying as hell...well the trip down south was fun..learnd a lot...came 4th...coulda done better...makeout with 2 guys...happend to be cousins...ppl who know then r like wat the f were u thinking...i dont know...guess im very lonely and desperate...go fig...dance in gym should be fun..this fri is the show..thats exciting 4 me...rand naked!! haha moony is happy...alexander on sun...ya....here is my entry...enjoy....lz have fun mocking me....i hate ppl....i wish they never existed sometimes...my choice...i dont judge like most do...but im different..dus said i looked goth today....i was only all in black....but also said i looked sorta hot so i guess that was ok..plus he stook up 4 me when jodie said i looked like a slut outa a whore house....he is a great guy tho i hate him on a lot more days than i like...but thats just casue im moody...and i feel bad bout that cause i treat nice ppl bad on those days....i apologize now for those who i care about that ive dont this too...i cant help it...i just do it...

Lazy slaker
Mood:  caffeinated
Ok i kno i said i was going to keep this "up to date" but anyone who knows me also knows im an overacheving slaker...well ok 4 like the last 2 weeks a frig load has happend...sum stuff im not guna say...but i had the korah tornament and waited all day for my one match*sigh*...but i won so i suppose it was worth it...this week was ok...somedays im just happy for no reson...i like those days...well tomorrow im heading off to brampton 4 another tourny...im realli excited for this!! i was just talking to vish and im going to try to get to see him!! aww i miss him so much!!...well im off to eat supper but i promis myself to write!!
tah

lifes a bitch
Mood:  lazy
Finally created this...im usually to much of a slacker to even start anything let alone finish...anyways today was ok...snow finaly fell last night and after i came home from practise i went out into it and made a snow angel and snowman/dwarf. By now i can hardly remeber what happend in the morning...other than i played vollyball and went to dunn plugged which almost put me to sleep. But after a slow start it got better. Whent to sci...did sumthing...then went to french and watched shrek 2.

I think im going to the korah dance tonight..tho im not sure y. I tired and dont really feel like going out but i am becasue ppl r persuasive...i hate ppl...really do. I mostly hate girls, we r so catty it kills me some days. Like how rhiceal(like hell i can spell her name) likes dan along with mel(shes such a cutei!!) and mel says they r friends but rhic was saying stuff bout her like how shes short and noone likes her!! wat good friends eh?? friends nowadays r never really friends r they?? friends will be by ur side no matter wat and help u through a sick or heartbroken day!! u can trust them and love them like family!! thats a friend...friends r not scared to voice their opinion against ur to they to prove or show something to u...well i think thats wat things should be like.

I have also decided to try not to feel sorry 4 myself...tho i know i will...and try not to make others feel that way too. Its pitifull watching ppl try to be something they r not. like preps...ohhhh wat a loverly topic no?? some truly r preps...dress it act it and play it like a game. NEWS FLASH!! lifes not a game that u can play with ppl as yous pawns!! and the sad thing is a lot of the preppy ppl r not all the skinny but yet they wear tight shirts and low pants which is DISGUSTING!! pleaze stop!! AND USHER IS NOT GOOD AT SINGING OR SIMPLY ANYTHING!! i hate when im hyper after i eat candy or sumthing i cant stop talking or moving in general and they tell me to shut up...then guess wat?? 2 minutes later they r chatting like 2 old italian ladies!! i just want to scream at them and tell THEM to shut up...but i dont...y?? becasue i dont want to be like them, in anyway possible. I like who i am i dont think im fat or ugly like all these girls do!! frig if u hate urslef so bloody much y do u look and act this way?? but then there are those who look the part but cant pull it off...these r usually the ppl who like the guys but the guys dont like them...its sad casue they r great ppl way better(in my opinion) then the others but they r never offered the chance. But i know 4 them there love will be like them, look the part but noones interested. Is sad...but the way of our modern life seems to be this way...ppl just dont care about anything anymore...not about the little ppl(i dont mean that in a litteral sence) ppl who live in places like africa who only dream 4 a life like ours and then we only comlain about the life we have...thats sad...tears in my eyes...now whether its from the thought of this or the hot sauce im eating i dont know...maybe both.

Im such a nut job...eating crakers dipped in hot sauce...but i dont mind being "an outsider" becasue it only means i know who i am. either that or im a nut who thinks about to many things to much. im currently writing a book about a serial rapest/muderer...ive read over some of my work and it scares me. how detailed it is and all. but watever i guess that just mean it will be good!!

i have also desided that im not going to stress like i normally would about being single...yes i do miss the comfert of knowing i am always loved but finding out its just a lie crushes that hope and feeling of pertection that i long for...i think a lot of ppl r like this..and its not good...enjoy time with ur friends and family...i know i should...right now this is more of a do as i say dont do as i do thing. besidessssssss guys r far to imature 4 me anyways...no watter how gorgeous they may seem...

Well i think that enough of my blabber 4 a bit...i have sooo much more to say...i love having this...
buhbiz 4 now

kari